requiem..silence..static...

this world is a dreary place..i wanna leave it for good..underground seems a better option for me..without a sound as i lay down on the moist earth..the irregular support gives me a tingy feeling..like acid falling on the sweet nectar of a daffodil..my back burns ..my body yearns for that one drop of life giving solution..but my mind is at peace..i hear a hissing sound..the sound comes from somewhere..somewhere deep inside me..as the roots of my body engage in silent conflict to gain supreme control..this little heart of mine hisses away in its plight and sorrow..in search of divination it lunges to come out of my earthy remains..to beat freely..beat in an air of sanctity and purity..chiselling its way thru my chest it tries its best to free itself from the shackles of mortal existence..for a greater cause..i have to let it go..its destination too far and its cause too noble..

i hear voices..abstract..barely audible..like chants from a satanic cult..hooded dementors line up in front of my eyes..ready to take the last of me from myself..

my heart frees..i was never yours..never meant to be..i beat for someone else..i cant be with you it says..

i lay there speechless..devoid of words..an eerie silence engulfs the place..the voices are more distinct nw..i am ready..for the last embrace..for the last step..

and then i rise..never to fall again..i see bright lights..candles burning in the mid of the night..glaciers melting at the tip of the ice..a supermassive black hole..is this death, nirvana or resurrection..i feel one with him, with nature, with the mountains , the trees, the virgin seashores, like pellets, my body breaks and i become one with the ONE..the requiem goes on..silence prevails..and its all static for ME..

and..all i want is to disappear...